Healing of self
China tea, the scent of hyacinths, wood fires and bowls of violets – this is my mental picture of an agreeable February afternoon. –Constance Spry.
What does it mean to heal thy self? I think you must first know yourself. Not in the strengths and weaknesses way of a professional evaluation but to know in a more intimate way. Others often perceive us differently than we perceive ourselves. It is surprising to me that many folks take that to mean they were wrong about themselves. Like most things, there are many sides of a person. When we aren’t “right” and feel the need to heal, I believe it is our own perspective of ourselves that is most important. Feeling comfortable in one’s own skin- is an expression that has always resonated with me. I believe the self-knowing is more aptly described as a feeling. We don’t know ourselves in terms of adjectives but rather by how comfortable we are with ourselves and how our life is going. When we feel out of sorts is when we need to pay attention, soothe, and rock ourselves. The best advice I ever heard was to “be a mother to yourself.” Right away, that makes me less hard on myself and more supportive and understanding. Sometimes, actually or symbolically, rocking yourself is a great comfort.
Healing takes time. In our world, where there seems to be a pill for everything, we don’t want to hear that. Take some time and devote it to yourself. Make it a regular, even scheduled event. This could take many forms. Practice yoga, take a cooking class, make time for a daily walk, meditate, bathe rather than shower. This last suggestion may seem strange, but I will tell you the story of when I realized the significance. We had been building our own house and contrary to the advice of many, we were living there while it was being built. At the time, my children were 10 years, 8 years and 6 months. My husband worked full time and I worked 3 nights a week after he got home. Needless to say, progress was slow. Strangely, our living conditions didn’t dampen my enthusiasm for entertaining. We were having a summer solstice party for a few dozen friends. The pre-party stress was high as we scrambled to finish cleaning and cooking. If we had the normal American set up, we would have jumped in the shower and came out just as stressed as we went in. Well, we didn’t have the normal set up, not even close. We didn’t have running water much less a shower or a bathtub. So, we gathered soap and towels and headed to the pond! This was where we bathed, at least in the summer. So, I basically went skinny-dipping with my husband in a sweet little pond with frogs and cattails on a warm summer evening. We swam and dove, soaped up and rinsed off. By the time we were done, we were relaxed and happy in a way unimaginable in the ‘usual American set up.’ My husband had forgotten to bring clean clothes, so we walked back up the hill to the house with him dressed in a towel to guests already arriving. In our relaxed state, we were able to laugh about our unorthodox arrival. Moral of the story: time heals. Slow down and find ways to soothe yourself. When relaxed you are better able to solve or simply deal with the problems in your life.
Ways to soothe yourself
If you don’t have a pond to bathe in (haha), create a sanctuary in your own tub or even shower. Scent is a powerful tool in healing. Simply buying essential oils (not synthetic perfume oils) and putting drops in the bath or shower can be a wonderful start. I like to include the plant material, too, although it does complicate cleanup, which may undo the benefits for some folks. You can compromise and just add a bouquet of beautiful and aromatic flowers to the bathroom. You will notice that over time, repeatedly using the same scent in a relaxing situation will then empower the scent alone to relax you anytime you use it.
Collect a few evergreen boughs, pine, spruce, cedar or whatever you have. Tie them with some nice string. I love string. I have all kinds of hemp string for practical and decorative uses. Bruise the needles a bit. Going over them with a rolling pin is a good method. Then hang them by the string over the bath spout and let the hot water run over the needles, scenting the room and the bathwater. Enjoy!
“The bath,” just saying it is relaxing to me. Many say they haven’t time for a bath and continue to “jump in the shower” as part of their morning rush. In Japan, the custom is to wash first outside the tub, sitting on a small wooden stool. The floors in the bathroom have a drain allowing you to scoop warm water from the bath and pour it over you to rinse. The scoops traditionally are like short open barrels with a long handle. Once clean, you step into the tub or o-furo. Japanese tubs are very deep allowing you to soak up to your shoulders. But the best thing about Japanese baths is that the water is constantly cycling through a heat exchanger, so it never gets cold. The deep bone relaxation is wonderful. It is traditional to bathe before bed in Japan. It is hard to imagine trouble falling asleep after such a ritual.
In the Philippines, another country where I have lived, they have a different custom, one borne of necessity. The Philippines is a poor country and bathtubs are reserved for the very rich. The average person does a “dip and pour.” Filipino people are very clean. They bathe every day and wash their clothes even if they only own what is on their backs. Bathing is sometimes communal around a spring or pond. Woman and men are remarkably discrete and manage a complete bath around their garments, laughing and socializing. I was lucky enough to have a place indoors to bathe. I lived in a grass house made by my neighbors. A rain barrel caught run-off from the roof and had a spigot through the wall into my bathroom. I would fill a bucket then dip and pour as the Filipinos did. The bucket and scoop were both recycled plastic containers. Filipinos waste nothing. The walls were not all the way to the ceiling allowing me to enjoy the sights and sounds of the coconut grove. The one drawback being the day a tree frog landed on my wet backside with a slap. I’m not sure who was more scared, him or me. He jumped off me to the wall. I stared at his lime green skin and orange eyes for only a second before he escaped to more familiar perches.
Making an outdoor shower for use in the summer can be a great way to relax and enjoy your natural surroundings while you shower. Covering the walls with flowering vines can add privacy and beauty. A Filipino “dip and pour” in the garden would take no more set up than a bucket of warm water, soap and a towel! Grow some aromatic herbs like mint, thyme, and lemon balm in a secluded corner for this purpose. You will water the garden as you shower and treading on or brushing against the herbs will release their scent! It’s on my list this year to finally make just such an outdoor shower. I feel relaxed just thinking about it!







